Oh Precious is the flow

I think something I've always struggled with as a Believer is the idea of forgiveness. The concept that God can take every sin and forget it completely baffles me. Sometimes I feel like I'm the one who brings up past offenses when I'm feeling low. I remember the times I made a bad decision or said the wrong thing. I think about when I didn't do something I should have or when I did something I shouldn't have. I've struggled with this since I was a little kid, honestly. The whole "forgive and forget" mentality is something I have never been able to embrace. I was feeling really down on myself this past week for little random things that if I were to tell you what they were, you would laugh at me because they seem so insignificant. To me though, they weren't. So I'm sitting in my office today and I started to sing "Nothing But the Blood of Jesus" for a reason only God knows. I think today is the first time I really appreciated the song. "Oh precious is the flow that makes me white as snow". How much did I need that today?! It's funny to me that God seems to speak to us in a way we all will be sure to understand. For me, it's through music. I hear God's voice in simple song lyrics that I could have heard a million times before, but for every situation, it seems to make sense like it never did before.

So today I'm thankful for God's grace and forgiveness.

God, help me to remember that everything I do is in Your hands. All the good stuff as well as all the bad stuff. Everything that I do will work for the good of me because Your hands are guiding me and leading me. I am Your child. I love you and I thank you for every new morning.

All moved in!

So, I'm in my new apartment. I think the reality of being on my own set in last night when me and my roommate went grocery shopping. I know I'm going to sound like a loser for saying this, but I was kind of lost without my mom there with me. She wasn't around telling me what to buy and how much something should cost and such. It was a little overwhelming! But, $35.00 later, I managed to escape with my sanity and 5 bags of groceries that should last a while. I thank God for frozen chicken in a bag and orange juice.

It took all day Saturday to get everything up the stairs. If it weren't for my buddies Will, Nic, and Chris, it would've taken longer. Thank you! I still owe you dinner! Everything is coming together quite nicely! We still have a long way to go, but it looks awesome for being a bunch of college girls' apartment. I brought my dog with me and I think she's still in shock. As I was leaving for work this morning she started to cry right as I picked up my keys. She'll be alright in a couple weeks, I hope. It's amazing how aware pets are.

As the apartment comes together, I'll post pics and hopefully start having people over very soon!